Unspoken Words.

Saturday, April 23, 2011
Sometimes I wonder,
Does this not mean anything to you?
And I ponder,
Don't I mean anything to you?
 
And so I think over,
How do you do it?
How do you move on?
How do you not care?
 
I am holding on,
Holding on for dear life. 
But this cant be a one sided thing,
If not what's the point of trying. 
 
Even though it hurts,
I've sucked it up.
There's only so much I can take,
I've reached my maximum, the rest will be fake. 
 
Everything you've thrown at me,
I've taken it all.
There are bound to be times I fall,
Of which you just leave me be,
Instead of picking me up.
It crushes me, oh yes, it crushes me. 
 
I've tried,
Tried to change to make you happy
Tried to change to make us work. 
But it isn't enough. 
 
Nothing is enough.
Nothing is good enough.
Nothing I do is good enough.
I am not good enough. 
 
Things you don't do with me,
You do with them.
You make excuses when asked by me,
But you're obliging Tim when asked by them. 
 
After 6 years of asking you to go with me,
You make all sorts of excuses.
But the moment she asks you to go with her and her family,
You say a big YES.
And the picture wasn't pleasant,
Cos her boyfriend was missing,
And you were there to take his spot. 
And I think so far, this hurts the most.
You've really outdone yourself.
 
You told me you couldn't live without me. 
You said you love me.
You promised me always & forever.
Do you, did you mean it? Or were they all lies?
 
Do I come before your friends?
Cos I can't see it.
Am I the most important person in your life?
Cos I can't feel it.
 
Its sad how you can choose your friends over me. 
It hurts that you make them seem more important than me. 
It breaks my heart to know how little I mean to you.
And it breaks me to know that this 6 years meant nothing, nothing to you.
 
You said I'm square
And liked the smell of my hair.
But I'm not thinking squarely,
It's you who've crossed the line, undoubtedly. 
 
You made this an ultimatum,
Where its your way or the highway
I've given in all I can,
Yet it's still coming to an end.
 
What you don't know is that...
I want you
I want us
I miss you
I miss us
 
I'm willing to do anything to make this work,
But are you?
Cos now you're choosing your friends over me,
And its crushing me. 
 
And now, it hurts.
It really does.
But I would give anything up,
Just to be with you in your arms telling me we'll get through this...
 
Together.
Because we're always & forever.
Because we're Haley & Nathan.
Because we belong together.